This perspective speaks entirely to my existence, except I also endured 5 years of complex trauma between the ages of 10-15 and self-medicated for another 15 years afterwards. We subconsciously do what we do to survive.

Your words could almost be a summary of the book I've written.

I see so many young people questioning, asking "Who am I, what am I?" And I have no answer for them.

The one advantage of coming out late in life is that when you know, you know.

There's no hesitation. Once the veneer of 'normalcy' is stripped away, and you see yourself for who you are, there's no going back.

Someone asked me if I could take a pill and be male, would I? My answer was rather explicit. But essentially, why would I want to return to being the broken shell of a human being I pretended to be for 60 years.

Some people can't process the existential concept of brain/body separateness.

Now if I could take a pill or two and be female, hell yes, In fact that's exactly what I'm doing LOL

It may not be magical, snap your fingers. But I'll get there slowly and I'm happy with that