I am so sorry for your loss. My husband divorced me, my son told me he was trans and my daughter left to study abroad for 3 months all at the same time. I understand your feeling of loss. One minute you’re a mom with a family and the next minute you’re all alone. I always wanted to be a mom and have a family . Thankfully my daughter has stuck by me and is my rock and my dog too. I felt like my life and all the good times we had together was just gone. I can’t look at my pictures because it is to painful. I found this poster we had made of my son when he graduated from high school and he was so handsome. I miss the little boy I raised who was supposed to grow up to be a man and have a family of his own someday . The other day I was at an outside music event and there was this little boy with these big blue eyes probably around 2,and he just kept smiling at me and I started to cry, thinking of my little boy. Since I’ve been on this site and reading the painful letters I have finally been able to express how I feel and I know I’m not alone . My heart goes out to you, it’s loss we face everyday.