Damon, it wouldn't have mattered that much if you hadn't spent your life floating with the river. I've spent my life going against the flow - always voting for politicians with ethics, who are rarely part of any government..
When I first started publicly questioning vaccines, I was the only person in the country doing so, and it was, and still is, a brutal position to be in in terms of both the media and the provaccine follow-the-flow majority. I persisted, wrote two books, and a few doctors in this country started to see another side.
And most of those doctors lost their jobs and some their licenses, like this one who was turned around by my first book, youtube.com/watch?v=CzZ…
If you study the history of vaccines you know this. First, every single vaccine ever thought of right from the time of Jenner, has had disasters that most people have no idea about, because the very system that refuses to keep accurate data on vaccine reactions, is the system that benefits financially from not doing their jobs, and is the system that hides the information.
The medical system has always been fundamentally corrupt at the top levels, which is why the Lancet was started in 1823. Now, the Lancet is a lackey like most of the others.
In 100 years, the medical textbooks on covid will say that covid was vanquished by a miracle mRNA vaccine which was safe, effective, pure and had no side effects.
That has been the system's MO from 1800, and it's actually written into the Federal Register as the way it must be.
Every era has had loads of doctors and people who have woken up and who have fought against the current, and paid the price, and the result has been tiddly winks resulting in diddly-squat.
Why? Because the system makes sure that those fighting against the current are seen as outliers, who don't know what they are talking about, and are fruit-cakes and conspiracy theorists. It's always been the way.
Going against the flow is very very hard to do, and the stress of doing it, makes sure that many don't, Yes you will be the stronger for it in many ways, but the reality is that real progress is almost impossible, because it's the dead fish that go with the flow who determine who gets into power, and also keep everyone who thinks for themselves, "beyond the pale" as the irish would say....
Which is why many people look back and say, "oh to be of bovine ilk, to just chew the cud and make the milk".