Because I became scared after reviewing the first of over 300 mortalities at my hospital during that horrible 2020-2021 winter. On Christmas Day we reported 10 deaths. Plain and simple: Fear, confirmation bias, trust in the Public Health and organizational authorities I’d relied on in 35 years of ID practice; I simply wanted the claims of efficacy to be true for me and my family. When I contracted Delta in July, I became less sanguine and noted not Delta infections admitted had been previously infected. When no one acknowledged this apparent natural immunity and refused to look into it is when I switched. But still, STILL... Even though I knew better last December, my Chief of Service, acknowledging my objections, still encouraged me. We submitted to the 3rd dose. Now the Chief sees but we practice in a State which has made it illegal to give any opinion other than “safe and effective”.