Thanks for commenting! That's very interesting. So much of online trans discourse is dominated by trans women, I don't feel like I get to hear nearly enough from trans men or non-binary people about this stuff. I love your take on how femininity feels different to you from each side.

What's interesting to me is that for me, masculinity felt boring and constrictive when I was doing that, but now that I'm doing femininity (as much as I can, anyway), *that* feels playful and fun.

I wonder if the difference in feeling is about differences in how both masculinity and femininity are expressed by people of each gender, vs. just finally getting to be how we want to be.