I hear you about pictures of kids on the wall. You said, "If I take them down it will leave a gap, not just on my wall, but in my history. Our homes are an expression of who we are."
I went through a phase where I took most of the pictures down. Then I after months of that, I went through the albums and put some of my favorites back up.
I too "cannot reconstruct a life without my family. They were the heart of my life."
It still amazes me that people support such a destructive ideology without question. I stand with you and thank you for sharing a story that is so similar to mine.