Thank you. My heart is broken and damaged now. 15 months is a long time.

They just ignore me, I am not allowed to email or call or text.

I just try not to think about it too much because, you know, it could

make me nutty. I have a friend that is a psychiatrist (we used to figure skate together several times a week bk in the days of olden) and she has been an absolute angel. Of course, my husband has also been my greatest advocate. I used to be an RN!!! I took many years of that bloody orgochem, pharmacology, biology etc. Oh well. I am 68 years old and feel very sad about this but I can not control it. I have "apologised" at least 50 times