I can empathize with your position. it's much easier for me as my background is in animal health. From the start (March 2020) I smelt a rat. The research up to that point was clear that masks do not work for respiratory viruses, that vaccines for coronaviruses were dismal failures and isolating the healthy lead to short term gains but huge long term losses. Vaccination during pandemic waves was an absolute no-no and movement restrictions between countries with similar diseases laughable. I think bureaucracy panicked and went in a destructive direction. Now they are invested, having spent vast amounts of tax payer money, they can't reverse course. For me it is clear: if you haven't had the virus AND you are high risk, a vaccine may be helpful, but keep those early treatments handy. The rest is pure theater!