i am too. i am the most cheerful friendly blonde smiling energetic woman...but there is a line in the sand. in the bible they talk about meekness. it doesnt mean to be weak. it means to know when to use the sword. that mostly it is sheathed but when used you have great potential. i would say you are meek. and the meek shall inherit the earth. you know when it is your purpose that is being called upon. it's david and goliath and we all know it. thank God for your voice and courage.