MiFly - I wish to add that reading these bleak posts tends to darken my mindset. That has not been difficult these last two years and that cannot be good. It's good to be informed. It's good to find comrades in spirit, but it's not good when our moods turn dark. There is always hope.

We cannot and should not lose sight of God's sovereignty and his love for "those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose" (excerpted from Romans 8:28 NIV 1984). Do all that you can while walking closely with him then trust his guidance, wisdom and protection when you need it the most.