you seem to get all worked up about it. it seems to go a lot deeper than you just enjoying showcasing fools. there is a lot of insecurity showing. maybe deep down inside you know you are nothing but a shallow personality and you keep trying to convince yourself of the opposite? giving away things does not make you a good person, only a slightly less abhorrent one. for you do not do it to help others, but to be able to think of yourself as being not so superficial. it kind of protects you from realising that you are in fact a sorry excuse for a human being.