First of all congrats on getting out of the maze!

I would encourage you to visit a local range for an introductory session. They will provide everything -- firearm, ammo, knowledgeable instructor -- for a reasonable cost.

You can learn -- and should challenge yourself -- to handle a firearm safely. Cutting your finger slicing bread or banging into a doorframe results from distraction. You will learn concentration, discipline and skill with a firearm, and you will internalize those skills over time (they call it 'muscle memory') and become a safe shooter. Even kids a few years old can begin to master the necessary skills, starting first with safety. So can you!

Happy shooting!