What shall I do?

I have no clue!

I come and go

Still lost and slow

They say time heals all

I don’t believe in that anymore

Two years passed, and the wound is still wide open

My body is right here

My mind is over there,

rewinding the cassette over and over again,

Stuck with the same thoughts

Why I kept them simmering in my mind

Why I didn’t spit them out

They turned into poison, slowly killing me

Could we go back to the start again, please?

I’ll do it right, I swear.

Just give me a chance to go back

No? I can’t change it!

This option doesn't exist, I know.

No matter how much I wish it

I can’t change it

I have to pay the price,

for jumping into the sea of unknown

before learning how to navigate it safe,

for not opening up and saying it all