so

i’m pulling back from instagram and meta, i can’t explain it but i just feel icky using it. the problem is, i have a slice of life sort of visual diary on my personal instagram’s stories. it’s just a hobby, not my pride and joy, but ever since i moved from the US to europe i’ve had this cute little slice of life updates so my family (over ~8.000 km away) doesn’t think i died just cuz i left The Motherland Of The U S A. aka i left to a foreign country, wow what a crazy girl, moving on.

i told this to my mom on our weekly call and she goes „awww no, you shouldn’t, i’m always getting compliments for your stories when i bump into ___!“

not to put myself down, but my stories aren’t… like.. special?

so i decided it’s either:

a) my mom is lying

b) reader is thinking i’m lying and just flattering myself for some ego kick

c) the people are lying to my mom

d) they actually like it

here’s my thought pattern:

a) bless my mom but she can’t keep a secret to save her life, plus she couldn’t keep up the lie this consistently

b) i like myself a little but not a lot, pinkie promise

c) to be fair, these people she claims she talked to don’t have any motive to lie to her, and they’re not usually nice to her.

d) people can be surprisingly kind out of the blue?

so i’m going with option d) because i have a wild card theory: these people are deeply unhappy and are stuck in media hell. all they see on TVs, adverts, all their fine-tuned echochamber social media feeds, everything they consume is so negative. who to be mad at this week? here’s why you should be mad at this thing/person/idea today. ((fuck fox news btw and fuck trump))

so i was considering, maybe they actually like my stories? it’s just slice of life boring stuff, but maybe that’s a palette cleanser of the hellscape they’re consuming? seeing some girl (they barely have a connection with) make a snow angel is nicer than the latest news about the saddest baddest thing going on in the world. nearly all of them are republicans, but none of them can be happy if that’s all they see.

lately i’ve been wondering, what’s the point posting in general? why bother? i can just send them to my mom privately if i wanted her to see? but now i’m considering this new angle. maybe my fun slice of life hobby being consistent thing for nearly 10 years now has been always a refreshing thing for them in their echo chamber of who’s bad and why we should be mad and sad.

i might „only“ have like 6 active followers there, but its makes me feel nice to know im cleansing the feed of some very unhappy people stuck in the own of their making…

maybe i’m hopeful or naïve but i believe that a dumb picture of a cat a day (or my ducks) could help heal someone‘s stupid messed up feed.

here are some pet pix before i go.

pictured are my pets: the duckies (private duck names), and the kitties named Macaroni and Soda

k bye :P