Lauren - I loved this! I think reading your words, and seeing you almost move through these thoughts in real time- it ended for me with a desire to live in your space - to own that time, and spend it however you want to. I think sometimes, the New Year can bring with it these feelings that we need overhaul everything, be perfect, hit the ground running. But, I think for so many of us, it is still winter, we need a slow start and actually - a reminder that we do have time. Some days will be jam packed and other days will be slower. it is a balance, and we are free to steer our own lives. Thank you for pointing me here, I really resonated with your words.