Turning Pain into Purpose

I have been on a journey of unbecoming & becoming again & again for more than 4 and half years: since my Kundalini woke up spontaneously in August 2021. During a text message conversation with my Twin Flame more than 10,000 miles away.

I have been on the floor in a pool of snot & tears more times than I ever thought possible for one human in a single lifetime, let alone in just a few short years.

My body has been hit by a freight train at high speed over & over again this entire time, as every piece of pain & trauma from this life & my past lives has been brought up to be revealed and healed by way of utter pain all over my body

I went from being a healthy, nimble 45 year old to a haggard, broken, decrepit 100 year old, almost over night & as I approach 50 this year I am still struggling to find full vitality in my body again

… & then there’s the internal energy that is switched on immediately. The constant & intense electricity surging through my body, whilst the Kundalini energy works it’s way through my entire nervous system, blood cells and DNA. It is a buzz that is visceral & can happen at any time, anywhere & is so strong I am astounded that no.one can actually see me buzzing away, like a neon light that isn’t wired correctly

I went from having a large network of friends and colleagues all over the world. A busy travel calendar for business and pleasure & I loved being the big bright social butterfly that was me. To having to isolate myself from any external energy. People and places. As my super, super psychic empath sensitivity began to take over my whole life & I began to soak in everyone else’s energy.

As if being flattened by a daily freight train whilst buzzing internally wasn’t enough!

Course it wasn’t enough because then came all the phenomena, particularly during my sleep. Energies attaching themselves to me, being taken to other dimensions and full on clairvoyant experiences like a whole queue of dead people coming to see me. Way, way, way before I was even ready to start seeing things like that…..

Overnight, in August 2021 my entire existence became dominated by my Kundalini Awakening. 24 hours a day. 7 days a week

It has been consuming, demanding, debilitating. Painful to the point of brutality & downright terrifying at times & for someone who knew all about pain in my life before Kundalini I can honestly, hand on heart say that a Kundalini Awakening is probably the most painful thing a human can go through. On every level: Physically, emotionally, psychologically & metaphysically & it all happens concurrently & relentlessly.

My mind, body & soul has been in a washing drum, on the highest spin cycle for a solid 4 & a half years

A Kundalini Awakening is without a doubt NOT for the fainthearted !!!!

Now, it sounds like I am moaning here & to some extent I am because a Kundalini Awakening is also the singular most isolating thing a person can go through. It is just simply not possible to share what you’re going through with pretty much anyone. It is too out there. It is too woo hoo & it is too god damn crazy. So, many of us, go through this huge transformation in silence, adding a whole extra layer of heaviness and weight to this already very heavy and completely catastrophic process.

The catastrophe however, is the unbecoming. It is the cleansing & the purification of everything that is not who you are supposed to be & whilst the unbecoming is challenging, hard, hard work and completely disabling, before long the magic starts to reveal itself & that is when the becoming starts to happen, which I will save for another post but what I can say is that I have peeled away so, so many layers of myself that I see the magic more regularly now and my gifts are starting to fully come on line.

I am Psychic: Clairsentient, Clairvoyant, Claircognizant.

I am a channel and an intuitive energy healer.

I speak Light Language & am therefore a frequency healer too

I also have the ability to tap into, see & heal past lives

As well as Angels, Archangels & Ascended masters working through me and with me

Now, that’s magic & it is time for me to start sharing my gifts with the world.

It is time for me to start turning all of the pain I have been through into power.

To help others, like me, who are lost, lonely & afraid.

It is time for me to shine & if that means sharing my journey, my pain & my triumph. That’s what I will do

I have no idea what any of this will look like. I’ve already tried to be perfect with my planning & execution on Substack. All it has really done is paralyze me & kept it all in my head, which is no place for it to be!

So, in this New Year, I think I will just allow. Flow and align with however this will be. By showing up & writing my story & my thoughts & feelings as they arise in whatever shape they happen to be in, on that day.

It is time for me to accept that I cannot plan anymore. I cannot be logical anymore. All I can be is my true authentic self, in any given moment & just trust, that by showing up, I will help others. That is all my heart truly wants!

Helping others is my purpose and I am ready to step into my purpose. To do what I came here to do on this planet..

So, watch this space & let’s see what unfolds

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Happy New Year

Honey x