I published this introduction yesterday — Who is Lucien/How does this space work? — and I realised something quite profound since it went live: I am loathed to write this book — the book that is trying desperately to wake me up to full vitality. And even further than this, I realise that is exactly why I need to write it — every gut-wrenching and godforsaken word so that it can be out of some hidden corner of my mind and/or body, and most importantly: Stop festering and repeating cycles in my “waking” life (Cough - Jung - Cough). I also address my ambivalence towards capitalisation and my little nervous system’s response to same.