I have the opposite experience of most moms around me. I didn't always want to be a mom…didn't dream about it….didn't get it. When I was praying for a husband, I remember trying to convince a friend in college that I wanted a life a long companion…I understood that children would be a byproduct of that companionship but it wasn't the main reason of why I wanted to get married. That was almost a decade ago. When my husband and I got married, I remember saying many times “I only want one…maybe two kids…and that's it”. Well how things have changed in just 5 years. I want to go back to my old self and say…just you wait.

Just you wait

You will love breastfeeding.

Something you knew virtually nothing about

Was grossed out slightly by the idea of it

And yet…in two seconds…you loved it.

Just you wait

With each baby, you couldn't wait for the next one.

Your son will drive you absolutely bonkers.

He will teach you patience, self control, and raise you just as much as you will raise him.

Just you wait

They will make sure you work hard and love hard.

With each one being born into the world, a new woman was also born along with them.

Just you wait

At how you will stop seeing them as “kids” and begin to see them as souls in little bodies.

You will catch yourself wondering what happened?

You used to be selfish

And now that at times is the last thing you think about… And you are more than fine with it.

Just you wait

you will choose to give up so much comfort for the little souls created

But life will get richer

More meaningful

You scoffed hard at the women with a bunch of kids that was wrapped in their world

Well you are that mom now but no longer scoffing.

You will spend hours with books on the couch with a child on each side of you and one crawling under your legs.

You will kiss sleeping cheeks wishing these moments never end

You will love pink and frills

Overalls and onesies

Swords and shields

Just you wait

At the corner of heaven

waiting on earth.