One more response, as a deeper reflection. If it is true that conversation-- this is a conversation-- is the very infrastructure of healthy relationship, AND felt conversation--as process-- is the antidote and remedy for false core beliefs like "there is something wrong with me," don't wait for therapy to have these conversations. Bring these conversations into your lives. Create community around these conversations. Integrate these conversations into your daily lives. Stay curious. Wonder. Ask. Share. There is nothing wrong with you. Suffering is an integration challenge, not a problem. Integration is simply "making sense" of what may not have made sense to you in a very long time. And when you find yourselves repeating old patterns of pain in your body and mind, don't judge. Look for your body's intelligence and wisdom. As we say in soccer, simply "reset." And reach out. Just like this. None of us can do this alone.