I find it weird, I've pretty much used up my fear over the last 3 years and I mean that for all types of fear... I have so little left to feed it

I still feel fear but it's at such a lower level, it's easier and faster to process without being pulled into the "what it's" and getting stuck in mental quicksand

I worry and I allow myself to give in to that on occasion, when folks or situations are worth it to me...

But overall I'm just so empty of what folks still incorporate from others or allow to fester within themselves

I feel very "alien" at times but I've survived being emotionally flatline, I'll survive this and find a healthy balance of fear when it's appropriate