As someone you deeply understands what you're coming from, who had a teach herself to leave her "cage" and now chooses to leave strategically for worthy reasons, I ask with compassion: Have you considered taking Jesus out with you? Literally. You can check in with him whenever you feel unsure, for comfort, guidance etc.

No one needs to know your turning your entire life into a continuous prayer by remembering you're stepping out with him, heck, even imagining him beside you holding your hand, if that helps. You could try taking walks by yourself this way first to get used to it and then later, you can try interacting with others. I know that my advice is unsolicited, but I felt compelled to share because I recognize this phase you're in. I wish you the best, stranger 💜💥