Very often I would say “I am envious” or “I am jealous” and people would correct me. I then started adding “but in a good way”. For me E and J serve as alternatives I can work towards, ways of seeing that might be new. I do not wish any less for the person of whom I am E or J. I do not wish them any less but so wish myself more. I do know that E and J can cut, and they can smoke to disrupt seeing. I guess I am fortunate in that my life is good, has been good, and hopefully as I enter my 80s and higher, will contue to be good. Curious to know what you think about this.

Fondly, Michael