"But letting my actions continue without owning them comes at a cost" -brilliant! I love this because the element of cost really is true, more true than we realise in the present, and there’s the acknowledgment that if you don’t use conscious agency to guide your actions they’ll continue autonomously.

You described that liminal non-committal space very well - not consciously choosing anything so unconscious/base instincts start to guide behaviour. I suspect that’s the space a lot of people are in when they sit scrolling on social media for a long time. I think I am in that space when I procrastinate and delay doing a workout. It’s not a deliberate choice either way, caught in a conflict!