I just came out of this situation. pray for my healing. I thought this pastor was my spiritual mother and covering. In reality I was being controlled, manipulated, and used for my giftings. Also not growing in them. 1yr of stagnation due to this. I also understood I was being an enabler due to my people pleasing, insecurities, abandonment and rejections trauma. It's wild how people use your trauma to help grow their ministry. pray for my church hurt and inner healing. I don't want to be weak in those areas anymore.