I like your take on this, because I feel the same way but still there are enough people in my world who do not feel or see this to make me question things.

Not my feelings, those are valid but has my fear led me to believe ghosts and shadows and worst case scenario? Or is everyone else foiled?

I can only liken it to my deconstructed faith. I felt something for a long time and was convinced it had to be me not the church. Then, when it all unraveled I understood that my feelings and fears were all pointing me toward an end, I just didnt know it was going to be my end with the church.

All that to say, I lean towards “them” doing all this deliberately but feel in my heart, that the sky points to their plans not working as intended in some way shape or form.

What I do know for certain is I am tired and just want to know what we are dealing with.