I struggle with some of these issues you yourself have mentioned Brian. I think we get caught up in the perfectionism constantly shown to us framed on social media and perhaps feel that we may be incomplete enough to finally have the most optimized life experience. I think the first step into making a bucket list and enjoying life as you wrote, is that we need to first allow yourselves to tolerate that not everything will be “aesthetic✨⭐️🌟” and flawless but rather just go and enjoy it.