When I was discerning for the Diaconate, the ultimate answer I got from the Bishop and the CoM was, “you have too much stress in your life.” I still don’t know how I feel about that answer. But I do know it changed my relationship with my parish and TEC as a whole. It is a hard thing to sit with, and it’s hard to hit a sudden stop on the rhythms of discernment one has come to be a part of. Disorienting is a great term for it, and sometimes we never really get an orientation back, at least not in the same direction.