I have a very similar take on this, I grew up listening to her all the time and then when I got older, the people pleaser in me would shit on her or agree with whatever opinion people had on her, which was usually a strong one. So when people ask what I think now of Taylor’s Swift, I don’t know how to explain that her old music is a symbol of the softest, most innocent parts of my girlhood. And the way that I spent so many years rejecting her music is a symbol of the way I was taught to hate and create a distance from anything that connected me to femininity. I’m still relearning learning to accept that I can like flowers and things that are sparkly.