Sister. Two things. It's Yeshua. The name of Jesus is a dark story like Nathan's. It's Yeshua my sister. Also, jezebel is hanging on to your through vanity. Father made you beautiful don't use makeup to cover up your light. Take your makeup off put some sweats on and follow your Messiah Yeshua in the way. Much love. Reach out if you are a lost sheep of the house of isreal because if you are one your sisters are here and some of them Kristin I know deals with the darkness that is your wheelhouse