so for the past couple of weeks i have been studying people i “hate” like certain writers or influencers, and i realize that that “hatred” is actually jealousy in some way, and i’ve zoomed out more and realized that we humans often despise people for successes we’d like to have - even if it’s subconscious. idk it’s been a turning point for my self esteem, to understand that i don't “hate” anyone, they’re just showing me a growth point that i should pursue (or in other cases they’re just bad people) but often there is a specific feeling of hatred that we should sit with for longer and explore if it’s a strain of jealousy

idk if that makes sense

but yeah