This is a thoughtful way of understanding it. Writing often begins when we stop trying to explain life neatly and instead let ourselves sit inside its cycles. Pain, relief, acceptance, and return.
What stood out to me is that you’re not trying to impress here, just to notice and name what feels true. That’s a strong place to write from.
I wrote something recently about how growth in writing often comes from removing pressure rather than adding more to ourselves. Sharing in case it supports you as you keep going.