This may be too niche but I’m hoping someone can speak into this:

I have two sets of family units who are missionaries overseas.

I grew up in an evangelism-heavy, door-to-door knocking, always-be-ready-to-share-your-testimony kind of environment.

Now as a mom who stays home with my kids and hardly sees anyone outside of my own family (and as a person who is not innately gifted in evangelism), I struggle with feeling like I am “doing enough” for the kingdom of God.

I know it can be disheartening for those who do ministry and missions as their vocation to not see people come to know.

But what about those of us with fewer seeds and smaller gardens?

Yes, I know motherhood is a ministry and a mission field. But many missionaries and ministers are also parents. They are doing both.

I think that is why I write. It is my way to share what God has and is doing in my life even in a season where I am not always actively around people.

I’m doing my best to plant seeds inside and outside of my family, my children. Unlike my family members who are seeing so many sweet new brothers and sisters in Christ being added to the fold, maybe I will never see the seeds I plant blossom.

Maybe I am doing things all the wrong way. I don’t really know. I will just continue to be faithful in the small garden God has me with the few seeds in my hand.