Hugs, . I hear you. My heartfelt condolences for the loss of your friend and your children. I'm sitting alongside you for a while, Charlotte. When we're 'doing' the doing, mind-space is difficult to orchestrate - especially given your GRWM article of 'morning doing!'
I feel the resonance of anticipatory grief - Caring for my Dad 'til he passed was a fraught emotional rollercoaster. I'm on my second, less fraught but still bumpy, rollercoaster.