I've been putting off thinking about this but..

When I was frequenting the autism subreddit years ago, I “found out” by asking around, that neurodivergents can't seemingly train their focus or attention or social skills like a workout. I framed the question in a way like “If you go out and socialize, how does it feel if you try doing it again, but for longer?” Or “Can you increase the frequency of the socializing and it gets easier every time?” the answer was a unanimous “It sucks every time. It doesn't feel like growing a skill or muscle because every time, it just feels exhausting” or something along those lines.

I couldn't handle that at the time, but I'm leaning to that being true since my time here.

Small talk sucks. Constellating is easy. I hate metacognition. Why did I do this to myself..