I'm on a raft in the water with small waves. I know I'm next and I'm going to die, but I'm not ready for it yet. A man sits on my raft and sits closer and closer to me until he pushes me off my raft and I fall into the water. On the raft behind me, a man sits on his own and I try to hold on a little, but I know I can't hold on to his. I let go of his raft, I let the water swallow me.

I'm at the very beginning of a new relationship that has a different dynamic than my previous relationships. I'm learning to be vulnerable and not to be distantly attached, but to let myself fully immerse myself emotionally in this new relationship.