Alexandra i don't even know if you going to read it or it's going to help some way but i resonate so much with this beautiful text, I feel like my brain is programmed to just survive, not living. I feel shy, weird and lonely but you are one of those artists that I listen when I need to scape reality and your music really brings me joy, I adore your art and not trying to sound parasocia (already doing)l but i really like your personality in the videos you posted. I hope everything gets better and you can find happiness in music or anything you desire to do in the future. I know that have people who listen to your music who feels the same thing and we will always support you in the means we can. ♥︎ (My English is terrible)