Oh here we go again

Here comes the spin

I thought I had it pinned down

I thought I had nailed it

To the ground

But then a memory

A song and it’s melody

The smell of lilac in the air

Sends me there

My whole life was with you

It was something we were moving through

Together

You were the other one

The golden sun

The only one that seemed to get me

And laugh and let me

Be me

But then you weren’t you

That spirit that demon got you too

I had to let you go

I couldn’t not know

That you were falling

And I couldn’t save you from the calling

Of the siren song of addiction

An affliction

Thats claimed so many victims from my life.

I get it, it’s not their fault

But each time it slices my heart like a knife

So I withdrew Resentful

At you too

Leaving me

The only one

To face it

To turn towards

To use my words

To create a new reality

Where I was able to really be

Not in all the trauma and fear

But even so I wasn’t able to draw you near

But you are free now

I see now

That you wanted to go

And I had to let you.