this year i took a leap of faith and, after graduating from my masters, i spent all my time applying to phds instead of looking for a job. there’s nothing i want more than a phd but divesting my time and resources from job hunting felt (and still does) risky and scary. despite some preliminary but unofficial positive news, i have to guarantee that i will get a scholarship. if anything, the chances remain very slim.

this time has been a good exercise to practice dealing with unpredictability and uncertainty whilst still remaining (somewhat) positive and enjoying life day by day. for now i can only continue to hope. but beginning to pursue hobbies such as substack has also reminded me that there is more to life than a never-ending linear progression🪷