This reminds me of something I just learned from sex therapist and educator Dr. Celeste Holbrook: that the opposite of desire is having something. Which is why that early-relationship desire is lost the longer you're with someone. Not because you don't love them! But because now you have them, so your brain moves on to desiring other things. I was so relieved to know that the "problem" wasn't me, even as I was and am stymied as to how to rekindle that early desire. Watching Taylor run to kiss Travis is such a strong reminder of what that early, falling in love, heady desire stage feels like. I miss it, I want it (desiring desire, how meta), and I can't look away.