“I have no desire to transcend my rage, nor pretend that horror is anything besides—I simply desire to hold it all. To refuse nothing. To grow my capacity in such a way that I can hold not only my own pain, but the pain of others, so that they might rest a while. I pray that I might offer myself as faithful witness to whatever I may be tasked to see in this lifetime; and that in so witnessing I never lose sight of the fundamental perfection from which grace, and pain, and horror all grew.”