Inside my head is nothing special,
familiar space, you know well —
the kindness, the complaints,
the undone desires to be
something more than her, she, this
(occasionally, nothing at all).
There: I laid it all, threadbare,
upon the stairs, projected;
plastered and unbreakable,
Yet, I broke it, us, the mystery.
Alone while accompanied,
I find myself,
walking imaginary streets,
tiny, insignificant,
searching for memories on riverbanks
in the city built inside.
“Please, don’t go,”
echoes in the empty space
once occupied (or was it?).
I trip over words, unfound,
stumble and fall, over nothing,
searching hallows
for the right way to say,
“I don’t, I haven’t, I won’t!”
Because inside here?
Weaponless, beyond words.
I will never hurt you, I insist—
but, I did. Every word, an inspection
a guilt, a void
of what wasn’t and isn’t.
So, now, I sleep at the base of you,
walk on blistered soles,
while unoccupied echoes
taunt closed eyes.
Looking back and inward:
touchless, bodiless, half-headed,
timeless silhouettes of selves
who love, who care,
who see me laid threadbare
and want for nothing they don’t have.
These howling hallows,
increasingly empty;
still, we can’t look at each other.
Even the gentlest giants ache
with regret and worry;
yet, carry on, split in two,
lids trapping contentment
for as long as it lasts.
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A poem inspired by this incredible piece of art , the artist and name I didn’t record. Anyone know this piece?
Petite Palais, Paris 🇫🇷