That ache you describe—the constant shrinking to stay palatable—it’s so familiar to so many of us. And you said it so clearly: the world often decides that complexity is “too much” before it even tries to understand. We want to honor the strength it takes to keep showing up as a system, especially when switching is confusing or vulnerable, and your truth doesn’t fit into a tidy story.
You don’t owe anyone a cleaned-up version of your reality. And it’s such a gift to hear you’ve had people who do make the effort to know all of you. That kind of witnessing? That’s sacred.