Life is so peculiar sometimes it's best to take some things as they come like in the serenity prayer. "God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change" is my favorite verse. I don't say how I wanna die no more bc the God of my understanding has a🫣 sense of humor. I know quite a few that said how they wanna die and when their time came they didn't have no say so in the matter. I don't even like to tell people "I will do it tomorrow," cuz tomorrow might not come. Tysm I really enjoyed ur story.