Kelly: I feel like meditation has saved me. How dramatic! I wasn’t drowning, and aside from this really aggressive cancer diagnosis, I was fine. Except I was stuck in serious ruminating thoughts, always replaying conversations or rehearsing potential interactions. I could not get out of my head. And I questioned my worth and value as a human. And I was somehow very aware of my body while being totally dissociated. I used to wake up and go to the to-do list in my head. What I would accomplish, what I would produce. I didn’t feel happy even though I had a really beautiful life. I felt busy, like I was always working toward something to be appreciated later. Now, I wake up with a lightness. Is this happiness? I wonder. I think I’m actually smiling, too, and all because of my aliveness. It’s so simple and so fucking hard, too. Meditation has helped me grieve so much loss while holding gratitude for so much beauty. It has helped me make sense of the sorrow and expanded my appreciation for joy. Meditation invites …