I’ve lost 6 subs and counting since this piece.

This happens to me almost exclusively when I write about something other than how I sleep with my child. I get that we all curate what we consume. The internet is overwhelming and people sub for a reason.

But it is dangerously easy in moments like this to start chasing the numbers. To listen to the niggle that says stick to what performs. Stay in your lane.

I write about my mothering because it is a huge part of who I am. I will always write about it. But I am not only a mother. I have opinions beyond bedtime and I always have done. They were there before my son existed and they are there now. And I have to ensure that I quiet the niggle in my head to ensure I do not start censoring the parts of myself that don't fit neatly into a parenting niche because some people only signed up for that.

Sometimes the thing I want to write isn't the thing that grows the numbers and I have to be okay with that otherwise what is the point?

If you’re still here, merci! Appreciate it <3