Three years ago I started using AI to analyze my own journal entries. I thought I was finally going to figure myself out.

First orbit: Oh, I have ADHD. That explains a lot.

Second orbit: Wait, I'm also autistic? And gifted? At the same time?

Third orbit: These aren't three separate things. They're one cognitive architecture.

Fourth orbit: The architecture isn't broken. My infrastructure was just designed for someone else's brain.

Each revolution didn't erase the last one. It contextualized it.

Jung called this circumambulation (i.e. you never reach the center of who you are). You just keep circling it from higher ground. My therapist recently pointed out that this process "has no end." He's right. And for a while, that felt like a threat.

Now I'm starting to wonder if the point was never arrival. Maybe the point is what changes in you between orbits. And whether you're circling through ideas alone, or through people too.

That second part is harder. I'm working on it. Thanks for reading/listening!