God help (unironically) anyone who makes the mistake of looking to me as any kind of example of a solid Christian life, or mistakes anything I say as me positioning myself as such. I am a sinner. I could point you to people who are such guides, people I myself try to follow, but I stumble more than an epileptic flamenco dancer. I think a lot about what’s going to happen to me on the day of judgement, and a lot about how much God loves me despite who I am.

I’m thankful I’m just a pseudonymous author with a small following compared to some of these big names. I wonder how I would respond to the temptation to craft an image of myself as something good people- or people longing for something good- would invest in, in every sense. What would I do when I realized that I could never measure up to that image and yet was utterly dependent on it for my material and psychological needs?

Say a prayer for this woman, and the others involved, and for me.