I love what you wrote about who you are now after trying to be who others wanted you to be. Maybe we can redefine the word and meaning of Masculinity without throwing it away. Maybe masculinity can mean all the things you said you are now that you are living with joy and magic and who you really are. I think that is what it means to truly be a man. I definitely see that you are a man through your posts and what you share. Authenticity is manly.