The most authentic way to experience this is to honor both the pain and the peace and acceptance …because they are both equal parts of my ultimate health journey.

And my emotional intelligence, resilience, intelligence and hard earned wisdom allow me to hold space for both the pain and the peace and acceptance.

This journey is sort of like finding out at 54 that your parents adopted you at birth  and now you’re searching for your biological parents to understand why you are the way you are, why they left you, and who you really are as a person.

That ultimate peace and acceptance doesn’t come until you get those answers, for better or for worse.

And that peace never truly absolves all of the pain you went through to get there.

It’s like loss and death…the pain diminishes over time, but the hole it leaves inside of you is always there.