I’m weighing whether to stay at my current job or move back to Boston and find a new job in industry. I’m also trying to figure out how much time would be ideal to take off between jobs. It’s amazing how stressful this is! I feel like the brain should be able to hold two or more possible life paths in mind at once, but it doesn’t seem brains are good at that. When I find myself falling towards committing to one path I find my mood improves, stress levels fall, and I sleep better.

I know I haven’t provided a lot of context here, but any non-generic advice on how to navigate this situation would be appreciated. I have not been sleeping well and end up crashed multiple days a week. More specifically, I have no trouble falling asleep, but I wake up and anxious thoughts kick in. My situation is further complicated by the fact I was experimenting with TRT the past seven weeks, and I was put on a very high dose (200 mg/day cream). I didn’t find any really compelling benefits from the TRT, and I suspect it messed with my sleep a lot. Cream provides a huge boost in testosterone during the day, but then your levels plummet at night. According to ChatGPT, tesosterone in the later stages of sleep is important to counteract cortisol, which starts increasing around ~4 am. I’m now trying to taper off the TRT (currently at ~40 mg/day cream). I’m waiting for enclomiphene to come in the mail - once I get it I will stop TRT and start it to restart and support natural production. (I have taken low-dose enclomiphene in the past without serious incident).